As I wrote last week, one of my friends has been very ill with Bacterial Meningitis. Although there have been ups and downs since he was admitted a week ago, this is the day of downs. His heart is failing, and now his lungs are filling with blood. The Dr.'s say that he will pass sometime today.
We have all been praying for him, and that he would be completely healed. We've even prayed for a miracle to happen. God still does miracles, and He still heals. But not everyone. Not every time. I've been praying for God's will to be done. But of course, I let God know that we'd all still like our friend here, and that will hopefully be His will.
It's not that God is inconsistent. It's just that He has a plan for everyone, and everything. He allows bad things to happen. But we must always remember that He will not give us more than we can handle. (I Corinthians 10:13) He is also our strength. (Psalm 28:7) And also, nothing can separate us from the Love of God. (Romans 8:35-39)
Although I know all of this. It's still hard. I still want to try to bake something wonderful and take it to her and make it all better. But I know that won't help. It's not something that a great dessert can fix. It's not something words can fix. It's something that only God can give her peace about.
I feel for her and her family though. I cannot even imagine losing my husband ever, let alone at this age. Plus, she is pregnant with their first child. So I can't imagine that either. At least she'll have a piece of her husband still with her.
As I write this, I'm wondering if this is even coming out coherently. I'm not trying to act as if I have all the answers, or everything put together. By no means do I. I am just a mere sinner saved by grace and I trust God has a plan for all this. Somehow, writing this out helps with the grieving process for me. Although he's not my husband, or best friend or anything. He is still a friend, and a friend's husband. And I will miss him when he goes.
Anyway, again. I am reminded of the frailty of life. The mere instant of existence we live on this earth and how much impact someone may have on people for that moment of eternity. Let's not just life as if tomorrow were our last, but as if today were. Love your neighbor. Love yourself. Love the Lord with all your heart, soul, mind and strength. (Luke 10:27)
This is what his wife just posted: "God will heal my husband by giving him back to us whole or taking him home to glory today. Please pray that God will deliver my beloved's body from this horrible disease."
Let us pray.